Labor is coming

I am sitting up in bed because sleep is pretty much impossible. I am having contractions every 10 minutes or so and all I can think about is how NOT ready that I am to have this baby. My due date is not for another month. But this baby is coming, and soon!

I made some very quick lesson plans for the week. And I am thinking about just doing the plans for the following week, too. They shouldn't be too hard, it is going to be finals week. It is just a matter of getting everything organized and ready.

12:51 am. Contraction.

I fear what may happen. The last birth...did not really go as planned. So, for this pregnancy, I didn't really make any plans. And now I feel unprepared and scared. Although, that may be partly because I am running more than a month early.

Brian conked out earlier, just after we picked out a verse for our unborn son and

12:54. Contraction

prayed over the birth. We also packed a small bag, although, the infant carseat is still in the garage and we did not pack anything for Emmett.

It is so late. I am going to be completely exhausted today. It is a good thing that I stayed home from school today and caught up on some sleep. I woke in the middle of the night last night pretty light headed and with diarrhea...another sign that labor will be here soon.

12:57. Contraction

But they are not terribly painful. I just don't know. I really don't want to get sent home like many women do. On the other hand, I don't want Brian to have to deliver the baby in the car either...

I had a doctor's appointment today. It was supposed to be the first of my every week appointments. The doctor casually measured the baby and checked the heartbeat, everything looks great.

12:59. Contraction

Then she checks my cervix...she said she could hardly get her hand in there because the bag of fluid was completely covering the hole. Hole. I was 5 or 6 cm dilated at 5 pm today. This baby is coming.

But I have not really started to get nervous until I turned off the lights and tried to get some rest. I just keep thinking

1:02. Contraction, slightly more painful.

about how NOT ready that I am.  Maybe I should start looking up what finals I did last time around.

1:05. Contraction, same level of pain.

1:09. Contraction, pretty painful...I think it may be time to wake Brian.

1:13. Contraction, same

1:20. Contraction, increasing in pain, lasting a bit longer

1:26. Contraction, same

1:34. Contraction, same

1:39. Contraction, same

1:42. Contraction, more severe...almost done setting up finals for my classes

1:49. Contraction. Really waking Brian up this time.