Learn to live in the business

I just wasted at least 20 minutes testing out different ideas for one of my other blog themes...and I wonder why I don't feel that I get anything done sometimes.

Now I need to spend time with Jesus, and I feel too tired to focus. I am feeling again that I have too many plates spinning. My new business idea is getting close to being off the ground and I don't have enough time to really put into it. I need to get it going soon if I am going to have something available for sale at some point.

Then I also have this thing called a family, which also takes my time, this thing called a house, which needs attention, and this thing called work, where I must invest time in the children of today so that they don't grow up to become hellions and ruin our future.

Ok, that last comment is likely untrue, but sometimes I get so caught up with computer work at school that I don't spend any time conversing with the kids. That is the advantage of teaching high school, since they have a mind of their own, they can go to work on a project with minimal input from me.

All this to say that I feel very pressed for time. I am trying to stay organized and keep most of my ducks in a row, but sometimes I feel stuck and I cannot go anywhere. At that point I have learned that I really need to get up and do something different. If I don't then I will just run circles around the same problem for hours and not get anywhere.

I have difficulty sometimes figuring out where God actually fits in my world. He is supposed to infuse all parts, but there are days when I have difficulty "fitting him in." As if he were just a check on my list. I too often treat God like a check on my list. I just don't think about him beyond the 15 minutes that I give him every night. Sometimes a very distracted 15 minutes. I have tried a few things, like writing verses on cards (which I ignore), or praying more throughout the day (which I forget to do).

I know that my relationship with Jesus should flow from my heart, but what if my heart doesn't feel it? Do I rely on strategies that will hopefully bring me closer to him? What else can I do?

God, help me figure out how to live right now with all the plates that I spin and yet somehow also make you my center.

Maybe this week I will pray before each class period and repeat my verse at the beginning of my plan period. I could try that and see how it goes...