I've been consuming my thoughts with wanting to get an online business started again. And we'll see how it goes. But I have noticed lately that my anxiety has been raised. I don't want to fail again. And I worry about not having time to do it, and if I make the time to do it, I worry that I will sacrifice more important things. Things like: spending time with my kids, with my husband, building relationships with friends and students at school, giving up the very few hobby interests in which I currently indulge.
I know that they will have to be sacrifices. But I fear that I will sacrifice the wrong things.
I have especially been unfaithful lately to spend time with Jesus. There are times when I feel so close to my Father, but this is not one of them. I feel like maybe I am consumed with life right now. My priorities are not straight. And it makes me feel sad. My life is supposed to be a reflection of The love of God and I just don't feel close enough to him right now to be able to say that that's true of me.
I know that there'll be abs and flows just like there are in every relationship. I also know that I'm not always going to feel close to Jesus. I just have to know that he's near and trust that the feelings will follow.
Sometimes I wish l was perfect. But the only way that I can achieve that is through Jesus Christ. If I allow him to work in my life, the work that he does will be perfect.
Well it's time to do dishes now, be faithful in the small things, right?
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