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I got into a sort-of-spat with my husband this evening, I have asked God for forgiveness for it because I know that it is at least half my fault. I have not asked my husband's forgiveness...It is so much harder to ask forgiveness from a human than it is to ask God. I know that God will forgive me, but a human may have no desire to do so. NOT that my husband won't forgive me, but with other people, I am much less likely to be forgiven, and then it is just awkward. 

I have been VERY sluggish with my QTs lately. I've been thinking so much about other things (work, home improvement, visiting family, trying to start an online business...which is not going so well) that I have neglected what should be the most important part of my day. I don't know why I continue to do this. 

WHY is it so easy to break a good habit and replace it with a bad one?

I guess that would be the devil at work, he loves to use distraction in my life to make me less Christ centered. There is so much that I want to do, and even though I prioritize every day, I am always ending my day feeling behind. 

I cannot see an answer to this issue. I think it will be my continual thorn in my side. Unless I am able to cut some things out of my day...but I do not see that happening either, at least not for a while. And life will only get more busy as the new year arrives with family member #4.

Lord, help me see perspective. This life is but a season, whether or not I finish my day feeling accomplished; whether or not I end this month ahead, whether or not I make all the right choices this year, whether or not I end this life with money. Whatever happens, you will always be there, standing by silently. Guiding and teaching whenever I am willing to seek the truth.

"Lead me in your truth and guide me, for you are the God of my salvation, for you I will wait all the day long." Ps 25:5